Have A Little Trust

I've had a few things on my mind the past 6 months or so that have really been bothering me.  This General Conference Session I decided to write these things down and pray about them a week before conference.  I've always prayed about questions I have had before conference in previous years but I've never asked as personal questions as I did this year.  I really didn't think that it was likely that they would be answered this time.  Besides my worries and wonders, I've been put into a situation this year that is completely new to me, a little uncomfortable, confusing, and even a little scary.  I really needed advice and comfort from this conference.

As soon as President Monson started off the Saturday morning session, pretty much every talk discussed my questions and concerns.  If I hadn't been looking for it, there's no way I would have had any of my questions answered and I would still be confused and frustrated.  I really felt as if each speaker was talking directly to me as if he/she had written their talk for me and I know it was entirely because of my preparation.  (And even though my questions were all really personal and only applied to me, they were ALL still answered)

I loved all the talks but President Eyring's talk really struck me.  His talk was about trust in God.  The subject itself was such an answer to my prayers and questions but it was also another testimony to me of answered prayers.  I had really had doubt about whether the questions I had this conference would be anwered because of how specific they were but then President Eyring said this:

 "Your needs are great and varied. Each of you is a unique child of God. God knows you individually. He sends messages of encouragement, correction, and direction fitted to you and to your needs."

I already had questions answered left and right before this talk but I thought it was so cool that President Eyring would say this, especially when I chose to ask such precise questions this time around and then doubt. 

"You show your trust in Him when you listen with the intent to learn and repent and then you go and do whatever He asks. If you trust God enough to listen for His message in every sermon, song, and prayer in this conference, you will find it. And if you then go and do what He would have you do, your power to trust Him will grow, and in time you will be overwhelmed with gratitude to find that He has come to trust you."

I've always had a map planned out in my head of what would happen in my life.  Some of it has happened and is in the process of happening but other things are not happening like I have planned or wanted or are too far in the future to worry about yet.    There are things that I constantly worry about and wonder why they aren't happening to me and when they will they happen to me.   President Eyring's words helped me realize that I need to trust in the Lord.  I may have a timing set out in my head for the things in my life but the Lord has other plans for me.  All the things that I have mapped out in my head will happen on God's time, not mine, and I just need to have the trust in Him and know that these things will happen when they are suppose to.  I'm going to have to constantly remind myself of this.
As to the situation I've been placed into this year, it's still not the most comfortable thing and is even a little stressful but I've been surprised at how many ways the Lord has blessed me because of it.  I wish I didn't have to deal with it and I am tempted to get out of it so many times but I have really felt such peace, love, and comfort from my Heavenly Father.  I know He is watching over me through His many servants and I've just got to trust that it will all turn out for the best and I really feel that it will.
So not everything has turned out as I have expected or planned but I know it will all work out.  I know I will continue to get frustrated with things when they are not as I planned but I guess I've just got to learn to have trust and faith in my Heavenly Father to know everything will be okay.